Saturday, February 28, 2009

My selfishness.....

I rarely asked anything from anyone....not bcos im trying to be independent...
or showing that im strong n dont need help...
I do....lots of them ac2lly.....
But i would not....
u could say it was because of my stubbornness....even my ego or pride...
But the truth is...
I was just plain scared.....
of being rejected......
if i do ask.....
I am a coward.....
for being so scared of getting hurt....
that i ran....
so there wont even a smallest chance that i would....
Mayb its bcos i am selfish.....
wanting to be given evrything....
to be the center of evrything....
but just once....
i would really like to feel that....
what its like to be d center of evrything....
2 b d most important.....
ive been sharing evrything with another for as long as i remembered...
At least once, i would like to not share sumthing...
anything....
it would be truly, only mine.....
No one else.....
Just mine.....
Be careful what u wished for....
u might get it...
just to find urself not wanting it....

3 comments:

Mustakim Ahmad said...

yg pasti janji-Nya utk setiap hamba-Nya adalah psti..

Cesc Ki said...

Hmm..just go crazy chucky, wut u got to lose em? Life's short. too short to wanderings and thinkings about risks. The risks..It is a fun thing u kno..~

Mustakim Ahmad said...

yeppp..satu kerugian kiranya ko tidak cuba untuk mengambil kesempatan...hidup terlalu pendek utk dibayangkan kependekannya...