So I'm TWISTED..So what!!!????

LOVE hurts and it sucks big time!!!!
why do i even bother??!!!

loving them and then what did you get back??!! Just a lot of unneccessary hurts....
pain that u wont even hv to feel if u did'nt let yourself be open to it in the 1st place...sumthing that they want from u...

Unconditional love....yeah, right!!!! Truth is....there's always sumthing else...

accepting u as u are....HAH!!!and even bigger lie....if that is so than y do u hv to change urselves just to get them to love u in the 1st place...y r there dissappointment in their eyes when u failed to raise up to their expectations...y are there even expectations in the 1st place....

Got beaten up is painful??!!! WRONG!!!! Wanna know what is more painful???their uncaring words...it slices up ur heart and takes 4ever to heal....a bleeding that u cant ever stop....wounds that keeps opening even when u tried soo hard to keep it closed...

Love requires sacrifices...STUPID!!!!! sacrifices that goes unnoticed....sacrifices that they wont even appreciate...leaving u feeling useless....Only repaid by accusations of a selfishness that u kept aside for them....Human are ungrateful beings....Sacrifices are for idiots!!!!!

And I am the stupidest of them all.....for opening myself up...giving them my heart...and trust...letting myself be hurt...over and over again...for people who are too blind to see...Im pathetic....for still being a romantic...still wanting to be accepted....to be loved....If that is love....is it really worth it???Years of educating myself....to built a mask of uncaring...of solitary...of independence....seems not enough anymore.....for with years...it seems like their poison has only become more potent.....that even a small scratch....could make my heart bleeds profusely....and destroy the very things that ive tried so hard to built....